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_"Huh?"
After that time, I had so many people around me I could start a game of poker.

"Huh?"

_{I breathed in deeply, the passionate image of the two still in my mind. Those two were just… they were just too much! If their actions were recorded, it would—without a doubt—be worthy of a R-23 rating.} 环肥燕瘦: huánféiyànshòu: (idiom) describes the different kinds of beauty of women and other stuff. [] 乖/乖乖: Guai. Here's the thing, this means to be obedient/good/behave but it can also be used as a petname. When it's used sometimes, to me, it comes off as both and expressing this in English is a pain in the bum! [] 三好学生: lit. Three good student. Meaning - it was a nationally awarded award given in recognition of a child/student who excels in their 1 studies, 2 behavior(morals) and 3 fitness/health. []^4. 柳下惠: Liu Xiahui: he is an historical figure that lived in 720-621 BCE, and was well regarded for his honest and upright nature and behaviour. The lovely man got referenced by Confucius himself, and is used to refer to a good man—like, a *good* man. (Husband material)[]iana: Xiao Jing saying to himself he'd "close his eyes", is one of the saddest lines I've ever read. He couldn't save himself, thus has no faith he can save someone else too under provocation, especially against someone with powerful connections. Him being aware of his helplessness is… heartbreaking.

I breathed in deeply, the passionate image of the two still in my mind. Those two were just… they were just too much! If their actions were recorded, it would—without a doubt—be worthy of a R-23 rating.

_N/A That person's voice sounded surprisingly familiar to me.

N/A

_{All these men, I was engaged with, were all beauties of each and every kind, each having not one thing in common with the other to the point where one could open an exhibition to display their variety of uniqueness. Apart from them all being men, they had no common ground between them; but if I had to choose, I'd pick a certain area of similarity—something that was with similar to Zhou Wenyang.}
All these men, I was engaged with, were all beauties of each and every kind^[1], each having not one thing in common with the other to the point where one could open an exhibition to display their variety of uniqueness. Apart from them all being men, they had no common ground between them; but if I had to choose, I'd pick a certain area of similarity—something that was with similar to Zhou Wenyang.

All these men, I was engaged with, were all beauties of each and every kind, each having not one thing in common with the other to the point where one could open an exhibition to display their variety of uniqueness. Apart from them all being men, they had no common ground between them; but if I had to choose, I'd pick a certain area of similarity—something that was with similar to Zhou Wenyang.

_{"Technique?" His brows knitted as if he were dealing with a question in a Chemistry competition.}Then came a shriek. I really wanted to know what that man did to Mr. Ouyang, but from my line of sight only his broad back and Mr. Ouyang's open legs could be seen.

"Technique?" His brows knitted as if he were dealing with a question in a Chemistry competition.

_{At first glance, I almost shouted. Which was really not a wise move after hearing those muffled moans. I, who had ample experience with that sort of action, immediately knew exactly what was going on, but nonetheless made one crucial error.}N/A

At first glance, I almost shouted. Which was really not a wise move after hearing those muffled moans. I, who had ample experience with that sort of action, immediately knew exactly what was going on, but nonetheless made one crucial error.

_{"Yes," I nodded. He stared at me, eyes lifeless—the look causing my hair to stand on end.}
Heheh! Yes, this was how I consoled myself, or would it be better to say deceiving myself? Some had eyes like his; some had a similar chin to his… and I, from each one to the next, gathered up all these fragments of Zhou Wenyang. His hair, his voice, his smile, the expression in his eyes… even though I knew these pieces would never form a complete Zhou Wenyang for me, I still stubbornly persisted.

"Yes," I nodded. He stared at me, eyes lifeless—the look causing my hair to stand on end.

_{When I pulled Wenyang out of the office in a flurry, both of our arms were covered in goosebumps. Wenyang's fair face was pulsing with red and blue, his thin lips drawn into a line as he said nothing for a long while. Obviously, what he had just witnessed was was well beyond a R-18 rating.}
In this Lin Jing's life, there's only one centre of gravity, and it's Zhou Wenyang. Despite all the things I do that pull me towards the opposite direction and farther away from him; in reality, I revolve around him, like some stupid satellite.

When I pulled Wenyang out of the office in a flurry, both of our arms were covered in goosebumps. Wenyang's fair face was pulsing with red and blue, his thin lips drawn into a line as he said nothing for a long while. Obviously, what he had just witnessed was was well beyond a R-18 rating.

_{"Ah— Don't!!" his moans were almost shrieks, "Xiao Yuan—"}
My days as a student of South High during came to an end very quickly during that blistering summer. Even though I pretended to fill in college entrance exam application, and even the graduation form afterwards. The truth was, to me, the questions on that exam form was no different than my three years on that high school campus—indistinct and utterly meaningless. (So when I received an acceptance letter from T-University near the end of my summer vacation, I had no choice but to lament at my father's powerful reach. Back then, I had thought that even if his son were a pig, he'd probably be able to get him a college diploma.)

"Ah— Don't!!" his moans were almost shrieks, "Xiao Yuan—"

_{Before I could scream out I quickly reached out to tightly cover Zhou Wenyang's mouth, while he also reacted swiftly to cover my own. Both of us staring at the other with widened eyes at the ridiculous position we acted out in front of the other.}
But in the end, South High of, all places, gave me one tiny shock which had successfully engraved itself into my mind forever. This deep impression made me, many years later, successfully recall that during my high school days, an English teacher, and homeroom teacher, named Ouyang Xiwen existed…

Before I could scream out I quickly reached out to tightly cover Zhou Wenyang's mouth, while he also reacted swiftly to cover my own. Both of us staring at the other with widened eyes at the ridiculous position we acted out in front of the other.

_{He covered his face: "I mean… aren't you always the one in the receiving role…—what if you met someone completely unskilled… that would hurt you…"}
(Of course, it's not at all the sort of thing you're conjuring up in your minds where this great teacher saved my sinful soul and made me into a pillar of socialist righteousness… that stuff is for primary school essays. What shocked me was obviously more—much more—greater in magnitude~~)

He covered his face: "I mean… aren't you always the one in the receiving role…—what if you met someone completely unskilled… that would hurt you…"

_{I could feel the burst of rage beside me from Zhou Wenyang, who wanted nothing more than to charge in there, while I quickly and desperately tried to hold him back.}He covered his face: "I mean… aren't you always the one in the receiving role…—what if you met someone completely unskilled… that would hurt you…"

I could feel the burst of rage beside me from Zhou Wenyang, who wanted nothing more than to charge in there, while I quickly and desperately tried to hold him back.

_{"Wenyang? You're calling his name so intimately… When did you and that kid have an affair, huh? You slut!! I knew that kid was interested in you…"}
On the day of the incident, Zhou Wenyang and I were both on our way to deliver the entrance exam application forms of the entire class. (The task was his responsibility as the class prefect, and because I procrastinated on until the very last minute on handing in my form, he had to sit and wait in that classroom until the sun went down, and there wasn't a soul in sight, before he finally received the completed form of this rotten apple.) His expression was not nice, his lips remained sealed, and I did not dare utter a word. Thus two people back then, extremely quietly, walked to the door of the dedicated office of that homeroom teacher named Mr. Ouyang.

"Wenyang? You're calling his name so intimately… When did you and that kid have an affair, huh? You slut!! I knew that kid was interested in you…"

_{I had known before that Mr. Ouyang possessed a child-like innocence, his one hundred eighty-five metre frame from head to toe was childish. But had I never expected he would be this vulnerable, moreso, when his counterpart was a student.}Before I could scream out I quickly reached out to tightly cover Zhou Wenyang's mouth, while he also reacted swiftly to cover my own. Both of us staring at the other with widened eyes at the ridiculous position we acted out in front of the other.

I had known before that Mr. Ouyang possessed a child-like innocence, his one hundred eighty-five metre frame from head to toe was childish. But had I never expected he would be this vulnerable, moreso, when his counterpart was a student.

_{I huffed! If this kind of person is regarded as a Liu Xiahui, then what the heck am I, huh?!}
The door was cracked opened and Zhou Wenyang, out of good habit, reached out to knock but before he could I heard faint voice coming from inside. But, although it was light, it made me pull back Zhou Wenyang instantly and gesture to him to shush. Afterwards, I motioned to him that we should both slowly approach the door to have a look inside.

I huffed! If this kind of person is regarded as a Liu Xiahui, then what the heck am I, huh?!

_{Chapter Six}In this Lin Jing's life, there's only one centre of gravity, and it's Zhou Wenyang. Despite all the things I do that pull me towards the opposite direction and farther away from him; in reality, I revolve around him, like some stupid satellite.

Chapter Six

_{"It will split open." I said in all seriousness.}
At first glance, I almost shouted. Which was really not a wise move after hearing those muffled moans. I, who had ample experience with that sort of action, immediately knew exactly what was going on, but nonetheless made one crucial error.

"It will split open." I said in all seriousness.

_{"Wenyang? You're calling his name so intimately… When did you and that kid have an affair, huh? You slut!! I knew that kid was interested in you…"}"Ah, that's uh…" I thought it over seriously, "Not Not necessarily. It depends on the Gong's [Top's] technique."

"Wenyang? You're calling his name so intimately… When did you and that kid have an affair, huh? You slut!! I knew that kid was interested in you…"

_{"If he were, no matter what Xiao Yuan did to provoke me, I would not just stand by and look on helplessly at such an evil act!~" I, inside my heart, secretly tacked on the sentence: *I would shut my eyes.*}
I thought it was Ouyang and his girlfriend who were hidden away in there like some sort of rendezvous between lovers. So I wanted to tease Zhou Wenyang to make him open his eyes and see a world of knowledge, broaden his horizons you could say. However, what happened was something I never expected, because inside that office, entangled with one another— were two men.

"If he were, no matter what Xiao Yuan did to provoke me, I would not just stand by and look on helplessly at such an evil act!~" I, inside my heart, secretly tacked on the sentence: *I would shut my eyes.*

_{Before I could scream out I quickly reached out to tightly cover Zhou Wenyang's mouth, while he also reacted swiftly to cover my own. Both of us staring at the other with widened eyes at the ridiculous position we acted out in front of the other.}Crap! Does this guy want to puke?

Before I could scream out I quickly reached out to tightly cover Zhou Wenyang's mouth, while he also reacted swiftly to cover my own. Both of us staring at the other with widened eyes at the ridiculous position we acted out in front of the other.

_{Zhou Wenyang's veins seemed as if they wanted to burst for a good while.}That boy's intense movements shocked and stunned even me, and when I heard that name, I was even more astonished that my eyeballs wanted to pop out of my head.

Zhou Wenyang's veins seemed as if they wanted to burst for a good while.

_{That person's voice sounded surprisingly familiar to me.}
Before I could scream out I quickly reached out to tightly cover Zhou Wenyang's mouth, while he also reacted swiftly to cover my own. Both of us staring at the other with widened eyes at the ridiculous position we acted out in front of the other.

That person's voice sounded surprisingly familiar to me.

_{"It will split open." I said in all seriousness.}Plus, we should've snuck away, but we didn't know why our feet seemed like they were nailed to the floor, unable to move at all.

"It will split open." I said in all seriousness.

_{"Which kind of of thing?" I thought it was funny, looking at that stupefied expression of his.}
Mr. Ouyang was being pressed down onto the table by that other person. This was beyond my expectations. But what that other person was wearing, was also beyond belief, as it was clearly South High's infamous uniform.

"Which kind of of thing?" I thought it was funny, looking at that stupefied expression of his.

_{The door was cracked opened and Zhou Wenyang, out of good habit, reached out to knock but before he could I heard faint voice coming from inside. But, although it was light, it made me pull back Zhou Wenyang instantly and gesture to him to shush. Afterwards, I motioned to him that we should both slowly approach the door to have a look inside.}I found him a napkin in the nick of time. Wenyang was having a hard time speaking: "Do all men, with other men…do…that kind of thing?"

The door was cracked opened and Zhou Wenyang, out of good habit, reached out to knock but before he could I heard faint voice coming from inside. But, although it was light, it made me pull back Zhou Wenyang instantly and gesture to him to shush. Afterwards, I motioned to him that we should both slowly approach the door to have a look inside.

_{"Lυbricate?" He looked puzzled.}
That person had his back mostly turned to us, so we could not see his face at all. And right now that tall frame of Mr. Ouyang was no different than a rabbit, struggling pitifully in that other man's arms: "Let me go!!! No, don't…"

"Lυbricate?" He looked puzzled.

_{Wenyang stared at me, face tinted in a light flush: "Ouyang… he's really not being forced, right?"}
"Laoshi… you're not the boss here right now."

Wenyang stared at me, face tinted in a light flush: "Ouyang… he's really not being forced, right?"

_{"Technique?" His brows knitted as if he were dealing with a question in a Chemistry competition.}"Don't be scared... I'll be gentle this time, okay~~"

"Technique?" His brows knitted as if he were dealing with a question in a Chemistry competition.

_{(Of course, it's not at all the sort of thing you're conjuring up in your minds where this great teacher saved my sinful soul and made me into a pillar of socialist righteousness… that stuff is for primary school essays. What shocked me was obviously more—much more—greater in magnitude~~)}
That person's voice sounded surprisingly familiar to me.

(Of course, it's not at all the sort of thing you're conjuring up in your minds where this great teacher saved my sinful soul and made me into a pillar of socialist righteousness… that stuff is for primary school essays. What shocked me was obviously more—much more—greater in magnitude~~)

_{"No, that not true. He's coming to drop off the college exam application forms, there's nothing between him and me…" Mr. Ouyang's voice was tearful, sounding quite pained.}I had known before that Mr. Ouyang possessed a child-like innocence, his one hundred eighty-five metre frame from head to toe was childish. But had I never expected he would be this vulnerable, moreso, when his counterpart was a student.

"No, that not true. He's coming to drop off the college exam application forms, there's nothing between him and me…" Mr. Ouyang's voice was tearful, sounding quite pained.

_{"Laoshi… you're not the boss here right now."}I found him a napkin in the nick of time. Wenyang was having a hard time speaking: "Do all men, with other men…do…that kind of thing?"

"Laoshi… you're not the boss here right now."

_{"Technique?" His brows knitted as if he were dealing with a question in a Chemistry competition.}
Plus, we should've snuck away, but we didn't know why our feet seemed like they were nailed to the floor, unable to move at all.

"Technique?" His brows knitted as if he were dealing with a question in a Chemistry competition.

_{Seeming to have recalled the situation from a moment ago, Zhou Wenyang's began to turn orange.}Plus, we should've snuck away, but we didn't know why our feet seemed like they were nailed to the floor, unable to move at all.

Seeming to have recalled the situation from a moment ago, Zhou Wenyang's began to turn orange.

_{"Of course! That place for men is not the same as a woman's…" I held my head, "Think about it for a minute, with that place being tight and dry, without lubrication, how can anyone go in, huh!"}"Since there's nothing between you, when he comes here, he can just stay and watch then. I don't give a crap anyways…"

"Of course! That place for men is not the same as a woman's…" I held my head, "Think about it for a minute, with that place being tight and dry, without lubrication, how can anyone go in, huh!"

_{"Of course! That place for men is not the same as a woman's…" I held my head, "Think about it for a minute, with that place being tight and dry, without lubrication, how can anyone go in, huh!"}
"Please… Someone will come in…"

"Of course! That place for men is not the same as a woman's…" I held my head, "Think about it for a minute, with that place being tight and dry, without lubrication, how can anyone go in, huh!"

_{"Why didn't you let me go save Ouyang Laoshi?!" Those honest words spoken by that guy put me on the spot: "You… What are you talking about! Doesn't Ouyang like Xiao Yuan? After watching them for so long, how could you not see that?!"}
"Stop trying to fool me, what time is it now? Besides a good student like me, who else will come find you, huh?"

"Why didn't you let me go save Ouyang Laoshi?!" Those honest words spoken by that guy put me on the spot: "You… What are you talking about! Doesn't Ouyang like Xiao Yuan? After watching them for so long, how could you not see that?!"

_{I never expected, that besides myself, others from South High would have this sort of preference. And even more, to have hidden it so well! Your typical sheep in wolf's clothing… uh no—wolf in sheep's clothing, huh? I can even remember how all the girls referred to him as "Liu Xiahui: the faithful, the honest, and upright man^[4]" behind his back.}Then came a shriek. I really wanted to know what that man did to Mr. Ouyang, but from my line of sight only his broad back and Mr. Ouyang's open legs could be seen.

I never expected, that besides myself, others from South High would have this sort of preference. And even more, to have hidden it so well! Your typical sheep in wolf's clothing… uh no—wolf in sheep's clothing, huh? I can even remember how all the girls referred to him as "Liu Xiahui: the faithful, the honest, and upright man^[4]" behind his back.

_{I could feel the burst of rage beside me from Zhou Wenyang, who wanted nothing more than to charge in there, while I quickly and desperately tried to hold him back.}On the day of the incident, Zhou Wenyang and I were both on our way to deliver the entrance exam application forms of the entire class. (The task was his responsibility as the class prefect, and because I procrastinated on until the very last minute on handing in my form, he had to sit and wait in that classroom until the sun went down, and there wasn't a soul in sight, before he finally received the completed form of this rotten apple.) His expression was not nice, his lips remained sealed, and I did not dare utter a word. Thus two people back then, extremely quietly, walked to the door of the dedicated office of that homeroom teacher named Mr. Ouyang.

I could feel the burst of rage beside me from Zhou Wenyang, who wanted nothing more than to charge in there, while I quickly and desperately tried to hold him back.

_{"An anal fissure?!!" His expression was dreadful.}
Mr. Ouyang's voice seemed fearful: "I'm not lying, it's Wenyang…"

"An anal fissure?!!" His expression was dreadful.

_{"Please… Someone will come in…"}
Then came a shriek. I really wanted to know what that man did to Mr. Ouyang, but from my line of sight only his broad back and Mr. Ouyang's open legs could be seen.

"Please… Someone will come in…"

_{"Yes," I nodded. He stared at me, eyes lifeless—the look causing my hair to stand on end.}Chapter Six

"Yes," I nodded. He stared at me, eyes lifeless—the look causing my hair to stand on end.

_{After that time, I had so many people around me I could start a game of poker.} "…Xiao, Xiao Jing… are you alright?"

After that time, I had so many people around me I could start a game of poker.

_{"Ah, that's uh…" I thought it over seriously, "Not Not necessarily. It depends on the Gong's [Top's] technique."}
"Wenyang? You're calling his name so intimately… When did you and that kid have an affair, huh? You slut!! I knew that kid was interested in you…"

"Ah, that's uh…" I thought it over seriously, "Not Not necessarily. It depends on the Gong's [Top's] technique."

_{"Yes," I nodded. He stared at me, eyes lifeless—the look causing my hair to stand on end.}Crap! Does this guy want to puke?

"Yes," I nodded. He stared at me, eyes lifeless—the look causing my hair to stand on end.

_{Afterwards……………}
I could feel the burst of rage beside me from Zhou Wenyang, who wanted nothing more than to charge in there, while I quickly and desperately tried to hold him back.

Afterwards……………

_{At first glance, I almost shouted. Which was really not a wise move after hearing those muffled moans. I, who had ample experience with that sort of action, immediately knew exactly what was going on, but nonetheless made one crucial error.}"Does... the one playing the female role feel a lot of pain?"

At first glance, I almost shouted. Which was really not a wise move after hearing those muffled moans. I, who had ample experience with that sort of action, immediately knew exactly what was going on, but nonetheless made one crucial error.

_{I thought it was Ouyang and his girlfriend who were hidden away in there like some sort of rendezvous between lovers. So I wanted to tease Zhou Wenyang to make him open his eyes and see a world of knowledge, broaden his horizons you could say. However, what happened was something I never expected, because inside that office, entangled with one another— were two men.}Afterwards……………

I thought it was Ouyang and his girlfriend who were hidden away in there like some sort of rendezvous between lovers. So I wanted to tease Zhou Wenyang to make him open his eyes and see a world of knowledge, broaden his horizons you could say. However, what happened was something I never expected, because inside that office, entangled with one another— were two men.

_{"Stop trying to fool me, what time is it now? Besides a good student like me, who else will come find you, huh?"}
"No, that not true. He's coming to drop off the college exam application forms, there's nothing between him and me…" Mr. Ouyang's voice was tearful, sounding quite pained.

"Stop trying to fool me, what time is it now? Besides a good student like me, who else will come find you, huh?"

_{"It will split open." I said in all seriousness.}"Yes," I nodded. He stared at me, eyes lifeless—the look causing my hair to stand on end.

"It will split open." I said in all seriousness.

_{"…Xiao, Xiao Jing… are you alright?"}
I had known before that Mr. Ouyang possessed a child-like innocence, his one hundred eighty-five metre frame from head to toe was childish. But had I never expected he would be this vulnerable, moreso, when his counterpart was a student.

"…Xiao, Xiao Jing… are you alright?"

_{He went over it in his head genuinely, imagining it very carefully. Therefore, his face grew even more unsightly: "If it originally is like that… then… what if one enters directly?"}
"Since there's nothing between you, when he comes here, he can just stay and watch then. I don't give a crap anyways…"

He went over it in his head genuinely, imagining it very carefully. Therefore, his face grew even more unsightly: "If it originally is like that… then… what if one enters directly?"

_{No wonder I felt that his voice sounded familiar. Xiao Yuan, huh.}Before I could scream out I quickly reached out to tightly cover Zhou Wenyang's mouth, while he also reacted swiftly to cover my own. Both of us staring at the other with widened eyes at the ridiculous position we acted out in front of the other.

No wonder I felt that his voice sounded familiar. Xiao Yuan, huh. At our high school entrance ceremony, he was the one who acted as our new student representative and gave the speech on stage. His grades, looks, behaviour and family background were all top tier—and South High was one of his family's establishments—making him the bright and shiny idol of practically all the girls in my grade. This first class, nationally recognised, all-around perfect student, excellent in both his studies and conduct, and the epitome of a good, sweet boy; was unexpectedly no different than a beast while in that office towards our dear Ouyang Laoshi.

_{"Well…" I smiled, "It's not possible that I'll let that kind of person touch me, okay."}
Ouyang's legs were forcibly placed on that person's shoulder's, "No, no don't!!" terrified—to the point where tears almost came out.

"Well…" I smiled, "It's not possible that I'll let that kind of person touch me, okay."

_{"Technique?" His brows knitted as if he were dealing with a question in a Chemistry competition.}I huffed! If this kind of person is regarded as a Liu Xiahui, then what the heck am I, huh?!

"Technique?" His brows knitted as if he were dealing with a question in a Chemistry competition.

_{I could feel the burst of rage beside me from Zhou Wenyang, who wanted nothing more than to charge in there, while I quickly and desperately tried to hold him back.}
"Don't be scared... I'll be gentle this time, okay~~"

I could feel the burst of rage beside me from Zhou Wenyang, who wanted nothing more than to charge in there, while I quickly and desperately tried to hold him back.

_{I found him a napkin in the nick of time. Wenyang was having a hard time speaking: "Do all men, with other men…{do}…that kind of thing?"}"Don't be scared... I'll be gentle this time, okay~~"

I found him a napkin in the nick of time. Wenyang was having a hard time speaking: "Do all men, with other men…do…that kind of thing?"

_{That person had his back mostly turned to us, so we could not see his face at all. And right now that tall frame of Mr. Ouyang was no different than a rabbit, struggling pitifully in that other man's arms: "Let me go!!! No, don't…"}
"Liar! You're a big-fat liar!!! Ouyang genuinely cried.

That person had his back mostly turned to us, so we could not see his face at all. And right now that tall frame of Mr. Ouyang was no different than a rabbit, struggling pitifully in that other man's arms: "Let me go!!! No, don't…"

_{Plus, we should've snuck away, but we didn't know why our feet seemed like they were nailed to the floor, unable to move at all.}No wonder I felt that his voice sounded familiar. Xiao Yuan, huh. At our high school entrance ceremony, he was the one who acted as our new student representative and gave the speech on stage. His grades, looks, behaviour and family background were all top tier—and South High was one of his family's establishments—making him the bright and shiny idol of practically all the girls in my grade. This first class, nationally recognised, all-around perfect student, excellent in both his studies and conduct, and the epitome of a good, sweet boy; was unexpectedly no different than a beast while in that office towards our dear Ouyang Laoshi.

Plus, we should've snuck away, but we didn't know why our feet seemed like they were nailed to the floor, unable to move at all.

_{The door was cracked opened and Zhou Wenyang, out of good habit, reached out to knock but before he could I heard faint voice coming from inside. But, although it was light, it made me pull back Zhou Wenyang instantly and gesture to him to shush. Afterwards, I motioned to him that we should both slowly approach the door to have a look inside.}
"Behave, don't cry. Darling^[2] will be very comfortable, alright."

The door was cracked opened and Zhou Wenyang, out of good habit, reached out to knock but before he could I heard faint voice coming from inside. But, although it was light, it made me pull back Zhou Wenyang instantly and gesture to him to shush. Afterwards, I motioned to him that we should both slowly approach the door to have a look inside.

_{"Don't be scared... I'll be gentle this time, okay~~"}Chapter Six

"Don't be scared... I'll be gentle this time, okay~~"

_{My days as a student of South High during came to an end very quickly during that blistering summer. Even though I pretended to fill in college entrance exam application, and even the graduation form afterwards.}
Afterwards……………

My days as a student of South High during came to an end very quickly during that blistering summer. Even though I pretended to fill in college entrance exam application, and even the graduation form afterwards. The truth was, to me, the questions on that exam form was no different than my three years on that high school campus—indistinct and utterly meaningless. (So when I received an acceptance letter from T-University near the end of my summer vacation, I had no choice but to lament at my father's powerful reach. Back then, I had thought that even if his son were a pig, he'd probably be able to get him a college diploma.)

_{"Technique?" His brows knitted as if he were dealing with a question in a Chemistry competition.}"Yes…" I racked my brains in search of the most suitable words to teach him—a teenager who was not necessarily clear on relations between men and women, let alone that between men with other men, as well as keeping in mind he was heterosexυal himself so I couldn't be too explicit at all so as to keep from scaring him. A basic explanation was good enough: "For instance, foreplay must be done sufficiently, and before entering one must remember to lubricate…"

"Technique?" His brows knitted as if he were dealing with a question in a Chemistry competition.

_{I breathed in deeply, the passionate image of the two still in my mind. Those two were just… they were just too much! If their actions were recorded, it would—without a doubt—be worthy of a R-23 rating.}
Zhou Wenyang's veins seemed as if they wanted to burst for a good while.

I breathed in deeply, the passionate image of the two still in my mind. Those two were just… they were just too much! If their actions were recorded, it would—without a doubt—be worthy of a R-23 rating.

_{In this Lin Jing's life, there's only one centre of gravity, and it's Zhou Wenyang. Despite all the things I do that pull me towards the opposite direction and farther away from him; in reality, I revolve around him, like some stupid satellite.}
"Ah— Don't!!" his moans were almost shrieks, "Xiao Yuan—"

In this Lin Jing's life, there's only one centre of gravity, and it's Zhou Wenyang. Despite all the things I do that pull me towards the opposite direction and farther away from him; in reality, I revolve around him, like some stupid satellite.

_{环肥燕瘦: huánféiyànshòu: (idiom) describes the different kinds of beauty of women and other stuff.}
That boy's intense movements shocked and stunned even me, and when I heard that name, I was even more astonished that my eyeballs wanted to pop out of my head.

环肥燕瘦: huánféiyànshòu: (idiom) describes the different kinds of beauty of women and other stuff. [] 乖/乖乖: Guai. Here's the thing, this means to be obedient/good/behave but it can also be used as a petname. When it's used sometimes, to me, it comes off as both and expressing this in English is a pain in the bum! [] 三好学生: lit. Three good student. Meaning - it was a nationally awarded award given in recognition of a child/student who excels in their 1 studies, 2 behavior(morals) and 3 fitness/health. []^4. 柳下惠: Liu Xiahui: he is an historical figure that lived in 720-621 BCE, and was well regarded for his honest and upright nature and behaviour. The lovely man got referenced by Confucius himself, and is used to refer to a good man—like, a *good* man. (Husband material)[]iana: Xiao Jing saying to himself he'd "close his eyes", is one of the saddest lines I've ever read. He couldn't save himself, thus has no faith he can save someone else too under provocation, especially against someone with powerful connections. Him being aware of his helplessness is… heartbreaking.

_{"Yes," I nodded. He stared at me, eyes lifeless—the look causing my hair to stand on end.}"Of course! That place for men is not the same as a woman's…" I held my head, "Think about it for a minute, with that place being tight and dry, without lubrication, how can anyone go in, huh!"

"Yes," I nodded. He stared at me, eyes lifeless—the look causing my hair to stand on end.

_{I had known before that Mr. Ouyang possessed a child-like innocence, his one hundred eighty-five metre frame from head to toe was childish. But had I never expected he would be this vulnerable, moreso, when his counterpart was a student.}
No wonder I felt that his voice sounded familiar. Xiao Yuan, huh. At our high school entrance ceremony, he was the one who acted as our new student representative and gave the speech on stage. His grades, looks, behaviour and family background were all top tier—and South High was one of his family's establishments—making him the bright and shiny idol of practically all the girls in my grade. This first class, nationally recognised, all-around perfect student^[3], excellent in both his studies and conduct, and the epitome of a good, sweet boy; was unexpectedly no different than a beast while in that office towards our dear Ouyang Laoshi.

I had known before that Mr. Ouyang possessed a child-like innocence, his one hundred eighty-five metre frame from head to toe was childish. But had I never expected he would be this vulnerable, moreso, when his counterpart was a student.

_{Crap! Does this guy want to puke?}"Then... Then why was he resisting and crying for him to stop?"

Crap! Does this guy want to puke?

_{"No, that not true. He's coming to drop off the college exam application forms, there's nothing between him and me…" Mr. Ouyang's voice was tearful, sounding quite pained.}"An anal fissure?!!" His expression was dreadful.

"No, that not true. He's coming to drop off the college exam application forms, there's nothing between him and me…" Mr. Ouyang's voice was tearful, sounding quite pained.

_{I was forced, so I have some authority and the right to speak on such a matter.}
I never expected, that besides myself, others from South High would have this sort of preference. And even more, to have hidden it so well! Your typical sheep in wolf's clothing… uh no—wolf in sheep's clothing, huh? I can even remember how all the girls referred to him as "Liu Xiahui: the faithful, the honest, and upright man^[4]" behind his back.

I was forced, so I have some authority and the right to speak on such a matter.

_{Plus, we should've snuck away, but we didn't know why our feet seemed like they were nailed to the floor, unable to move at all.}The door was cracked opened and Zhou Wenyang, out of good habit, reached out to knock but before he could I heard faint voice coming from inside. But, although it was light, it made me pull back Zhou Wenyang instantly and gesture to him to shush. Afterwards, I motioned to him that we should both slowly approach the door to have a look inside.

Plus, we should've snuck away, but we didn't know why our feet seemed like they were nailed to the floor, unable to move at all.

_{I laughed out loud: "That's because you don't understand!" Seeing the hurt look on his face, I quickly switched gears: "If you really want to know, I can explain it to you, okay… but you're not gay so there's no point in learning it, is there."}
I huffed! If this kind of person is regarded as a Liu Xiahui, then what the heck am I, huh?!

I laughed out loud: "That's because you don't understand!" Seeing the hurt look on his face, I quickly switched gears: "If you really want to know, I can explain it to you, okay… but you're not gay so there's no point in learning it, is there."

_{"Liar! You're a big-fat liar!!! Ouyang genuinely cried.} "Why didn't you let me go save Ouyang Laoshi?!" Those honest words spoken by that guy put me on the spot: "You… What are you talking about! Doesn't Ouyang like Xiao Yuan? After watching them for so long, how could you not see that?!"

"Liar! You're a big-fat liar!!! Ouyang genuinely cried.

_{"Don't be scared... I'll be gentle this time, okay~~"}I could feel the burst of rage beside me from Zhou Wenyang, who wanted nothing more than to charge in there, while I quickly and desperately tried to hold him back.

"Don't be scared... I'll be gentle this time, okay~~"

_{Chapter Six}
When I pulled Wenyang out of the office in a flurry, both of our arms were covered in goosebumps. Wenyang's fair face was pulsing with red and blue, his thin lips drawn into a line as he said nothing for a long while. Obviously, what he had just witnessed was was well beyond a R-18 rating.

Chapter Six

_{"Then... Then why was he resisting and crying for him to stop?"}
I breathed in deeply, the passionate image of the two still in my mind. Those two were just… they were just too much! If their actions were recorded, it would—without a doubt—be worthy of a R-23 rating.

"Then... Then why was he resisting and crying for him to stop?"

_{He went over it in his head genuinely, imagining it very carefully. Therefore, his face grew even more unsightly: "If it originally is like that… then… what if one enters directly?"}He went over it in his head genuinely, imagining it very carefully. Therefore, his face grew even more unsightly: "If it originally is like that… then… what if one enters directly?"

He went over it in his head genuinely, imagining it very carefully. Therefore, his face grew even more unsightly: "If it originally is like that… then… what if one enters directly?"

_{"No, that not true. He's coming to drop off the college exam application forms, there's nothing between him and me…" Mr. Ouyang's voice was tearful, sounding quite pained.}
"Why didn't you let me go save Ouyang Laoshi?!" Those honest words spoken by that guy put me on the spot: "You… What are you talking about! Doesn't Ouyang like Xiao Yuan? After watching them for so long, how could you not see that?!"

"No, that not true. He's coming to drop off the college exam application forms, there's nothing between him and me…" Mr. Ouyang's voice was tearful, sounding quite pained.

_{The door was cracked opened and Zhou Wenyang, out of good habit, reached out to knock but before he could I heard faint voice coming from inside. But, although it was light, it made me pull back Zhou Wenyang instantly and gesture to him to shush. Afterwards, I motioned to him that we should both slowly approach the door to have a look inside.}Mr. Ouyang was being pressed down onto the table by that other person. This was beyond my expectations. But what that other person was wearing, was also beyond belief, as it was clearly South High's infamous uniform.

The door was cracked opened and Zhou Wenyang, out of good habit, reached out to knock but before he could I heard faint voice coming from inside. But, although it was light, it made me pull back Zhou Wenyang instantly and gesture to him to shush. Afterwards, I motioned to him that we should both slowly approach the door to have a look inside.

_{"Since there's nothing between you, when he comes here, he can just stay and watch then. I don't give a crap anyways…"}
"Then... Then why was he resisting and crying for him to stop?"

"Since there's nothing between you, when he comes here, he can just stay and watch then. I don't give a crap anyways…"

_{Zhou Wenyang's veins seemed as if they wanted to burst for a good while.}
I laughed out loud: "That's because you don't understand!" Seeing the hurt look on his face, I quickly switched gears: "If you really want to know, I can explain it to you, okay… but you're not gay so there's no point in learning it, is there."

Zhou Wenyang's veins seemed as if they wanted to burst for a good while.

_{No wonder I felt that his voice sounded familiar. Xiao Yuan, huh.}That person's voice sounded surprisingly familiar to me.

No wonder I felt that his voice sounded familiar. Xiao Yuan, huh. At our high school entrance ceremony, he was the one who acted as our new student representative and gave the speech on stage. His grades, looks, behaviour and family background were all top tier—and South High was one of his family's establishments—making him the bright and shiny idol of practically all the girls in my grade. This first class, nationally recognised, all-around perfect student, excellent in both his studies and conduct, and the epitome of a good, sweet boy; was unexpectedly no different than a beast while in that office towards our dear Ouyang Laoshi.

_{On the day of the incident, Zhou Wenyang and I were both on our way to deliver the entrance exam application forms of the entire class. (The task was his responsibility as the class prefect, and because I procrastinated on until the very last minute on handing in my form, he had to sit and wait in that classroom until the sun went down, and there wasn't a soul in sight, before he finally received the completed form of this rotten apple.}"Well…" I smiled, "It's not possible that I'll let that kind of person touch me, okay."

On the day of the incident, Zhou Wenyang and I were both on our way to deliver the entrance exam application forms of the entire class. (The task was his responsibility as the class prefect, and because I procrastinated on until the very last minute on handing in my form, he had to sit and wait in that classroom until the sun went down, and there wasn't a soul in sight, before he finally received the completed form of this rotten apple.) His expression was not nice, his lips remained sealed, and I did not dare utter a word. Thus two people back then, extremely quietly, walked to the door of the dedicated office of that homeroom teacher named Mr. Ouyang.

_{Looking back, that really was a marvellous scene. Standing on that school's lawn, I, to the heterosexual man whom I loved, gently gave the knowledge of and re-education in 'Gay H-stuff". I do not dare say that my motivations were pure, but the many years which have passed have proved that both of us weren't alone in having ulterior motives.}
Wenyang stared at me, face tinted in a light flush: "Ouyang… he's really not being forced, right?"

Looking back, that really was a marvellous scene. Standing on that school's lawn, I, to the heterosexual man whom I loved, gently gave the knowledge of and re-education in 'Gay H-stuff". I do not dare say that my motivations were pure, but the many years which have passed have proved that both of us weren't alone in having ulterior motives.

_{Ouyang's legs were forcibly placed on that person's shoulder's, "No, no don't!!" terrified—to the point where tears almost came out.}
I rose my hand and swore: "Really, he's really not!"

Ouyang's legs were forcibly placed on that person's shoulder's, "No, no don't!!" terrified—to the point where tears almost came out.

_{No wonder I felt that his voice sounded familiar. Xiao Yuan, huh.}
I was forced, so I have some authority and the right to speak on such a matter.

No wonder I felt that his voice sounded familiar. Xiao Yuan, huh. At our high school entrance ceremony, he was the one who acted as our new student representative and gave the speech on stage. His grades, looks, behaviour and family background were all top tier—and South High was one of his family's establishments—making him the bright and shiny idol of practically all the girls in my grade. This first class, nationally recognised, all-around perfect student, excellent in both his studies and conduct, and the epitome of a good, sweet boy; was unexpectedly no different than a beast while in that office towards our dear Ouyang Laoshi.

_{"Liar! You're a big-fat liar!!! Ouyang genuinely cried.} I could feel the burst of rage beside me from Zhou Wenyang, who wanted nothing more than to charge in there, while I quickly and desperately tried to hold him back.

"Liar! You're a big-fat liar!!! Ouyang genuinely cried.

_{(Of course, it's not at all the sort of thing you're conjuring up in your minds where this great teacher saved my sinful soul and made me into a pillar of socialist righteousness… that stuff is for primary school essays. What shocked me was obviously more—much more—greater in magnitude~~)}That boy's intense movements shocked and stunned even me, and when I heard that name, I was even more astonished that my eyeballs wanted to pop out of my head.

(Of course, it's not at all the sort of thing you're conjuring up in your minds where this great teacher saved my sinful soul and made me into a pillar of socialist righteousness… that stuff is for primary school essays. What shocked me was obviously more—much more—greater in magnitude~~)

_{"Laoshi… you're not the boss here right now."}
"If he were, no matter what Xiao Yuan did to provoke me, I would not just stand by and look on helplessly at such an evil act!~" I, inside my heart, secretly tacked on the sentence: *I would shut my eyes.*

"Laoshi… you're not the boss here right now."

_{No wonder I felt that his voice sounded familiar. Xiao Yuan, huh.}"…Xiao, Xiao Jing… are you alright?"

No wonder I felt that his voice sounded familiar. Xiao Yuan, huh. At our high school entrance ceremony, he was the one who acted as our new student representative and gave the speech on stage. His grades, looks, behaviour and family background were all top tier—and South High was one of his family's establishments—making him the bright and shiny idol of practically all the girls in my grade. This first class, nationally recognised, all-around perfect student, excellent in both his studies and conduct, and the epitome of a good, sweet boy; was unexpectedly no different than a beast while in that office towards our dear Ouyang Laoshi.

_{Then came a shriek. I really wanted to know what that man did to Mr. Ouyang, but from my line of sight only his broad back and Mr. Ouyang's open legs could be seen.}
Seeming to have recalled the situation from a moment ago, Zhou Wenyang's began to turn orange.

Then came a shriek. I really wanted to know what that man did to Mr. Ouyang, but from my line of sight only his broad back and Mr. Ouyang's open legs could be seen.

_{Wenyang stared at me, face tinted in a light flush: "Ouyang… he's really not being forced, right?"}"…Xiao, Xiao Jing… are you alright?"

Wenyang stared at me, face tinted in a light flush: "Ouyang… he's really not being forced, right?"

_{Crap! Does this guy want to puke?}Heheh! Yes, this was how I consoled myself, or would it be better to say deceiving myself? Some had eyes like his; some had a similar chin to his… and I, from each one to the next, gathered up all these fragments of Zhou Wenyang. His hair, his voice, his smile, the expression in his eyes… even though I knew these pieces would never form a complete Zhou Wenyang for me, I still stubbornly persisted.

Crap! Does this guy want to puke?

_{"Behave, don't cry. Darling will be very comfortable, alright."}
Crap! Does this guy want to puke?

"Behave, don't cry. Darling will be very comfortable, alright."

_{"Of course! That place for men is not the same as a woman's…" I held my head, "Think about it for a minute, with that place being tight and dry, without lubrication, how can anyone go in, huh!"}The door was cracked opened and Zhou Wenyang, out of good habit, reached out to knock but before he could I heard faint voice coming from inside. But, although it was light, it made me pull back Zhou Wenyang instantly and gesture to him to shush. Afterwards, I motioned to him that we should both slowly approach the door to have a look inside.

"Of course! That place for men is not the same as a woman's…" I held my head, "Think about it for a minute, with that place being tight and dry, without lubrication, how can anyone go in, huh!"

_{Seeming to have recalled the situation from a moment ago, Zhou Wenyang's began to turn orange.}
I found him a napkin in the nick of time. Wenyang was having a hard time speaking: "Do all men, with other men…do…that kind of thing?"

Seeming to have recalled the situation from a moment ago, Zhou Wenyang's began to turn orange.

_{At first glance, I almost shouted. Which was really not a wise move after hearing those muffled moans. I, who had ample experience with that sort of action, immediately knew exactly what was going on, but nonetheless made one crucial error.}When I pulled Wenyang out of the office in a flurry, both of our arms were covered in goosebumps. Wenyang's fair face was pulsing with red and blue, his thin lips drawn into a line as he said nothing for a long while. Obviously, what he had just witnessed was was well beyond a R-18 rating.

At first glance, I almost shouted. Which was really not a wise move after hearing those muffled moans. I, who had ample experience with that sort of action, immediately knew exactly what was going on, but nonetheless made one crucial error.

_{Seeming to have recalled the situation from a moment ago, Zhou Wenyang's began to turn orange.}Wenyang stared at me, face tinted in a light flush: "Ouyang… he's really not being forced, right?"

Seeming to have recalled the situation from a moment ago, Zhou Wenyang's began to turn orange.

_{I thought it was Ouyang and his girlfriend who were hidden away in there like some sort of rendezvous between lovers. So I wanted to tease Zhou Wenyang to make him open his eyes and see a world of knowledge, broaden his horizons you could say. However, what happened was something I never expected, because inside that office, entangled with one another— were two men.}
"Which kind of of thing?" I thought it was funny, looking at that stupefied expression of his.

I thought it was Ouyang and his girlfriend who were hidden away in there like some sort of rendezvous between lovers. So I wanted to tease Zhou Wenyang to make him open his eyes and see a world of knowledge, broaden his horizons you could say. However, what happened was something I never expected, because inside that office, entangled with one another— were two men.

_{Mr. Ouyang was being pressed down onto the table by that other person. This was beyond my expectations. But what that other person was wearing, was also beyond belief, as it was clearly South High's infamous uniform.}
"Does... the one playing the female role feel a lot of pain?"

Mr. Ouyang was being pressed down onto the table by that other person. This was beyond my expectations. But what that other person was wearing, was also beyond belief, as it was clearly South High's infamous uniform.

_{At first glance, I almost shouted. Which was really not a wise move after hearing those muffled moans. I, who had ample experience with that sort of action, immediately knew exactly what was going on, but nonetheless made one crucial error.}After that time, I had so many people around me I could start a game of poker.

At first glance, I almost shouted. Which was really not a wise move after hearing those muffled moans. I, who had ample experience with that sort of action, immediately knew exactly what was going on, but nonetheless made one crucial error.

_{I rose my hand and swore: "Really, he's really not!"}
"Ah, that's uh…" I thought it over seriously, "Not Not necessarily. It depends on the Gong's [Top's] technique."

I rose my hand and swore: "Really, he's really not!"

_{I never expected, that besides myself, others from South High would have this sort of preference. And even more, to have hidden it so well! Your typical sheep in wolf's clothing… uh no—wolf in sheep's clothing, huh? I can even remember how all the girls referred to him as "Liu Xiahui: the faithful, the honest, and upright man^[4]" behind his back.}"Yes," I nodded. He stared at me, eyes lifeless—the look causing my hair to stand on end.

I never expected, that besides myself, others from South High would have this sort of preference. And even more, to have hidden it so well! Your typical sheep in wolf's clothing… uh no—wolf in sheep's clothing, huh? I can even remember how all the girls referred to him as "Liu Xiahui: the faithful, the honest, and upright man^[4]" behind his back.

_{"Yes…" I racked my brains in search of the most suitable words to teach him—a teenager who was not necessarily clear on relations between men and women, let alone that between men with other men, as well as keeping in mind he was heterosexυal himself so I couldn't be too explicit at all so as to keep from scaring him. A basic explanation was good enough: "For instance, foreplay must be done sufficiently, and before entering one must remember to lubricate…".}
"Technique?" His brows knitted as if he were dealing with a question in a Chemistry competition.

"Yes…" I racked my brains in search of the most suitable words to teach him—a teenager who was not necessarily clear on relations between men and women, let alone that between men with other men, as well as keeping in mind he was heterosexυal himself so I couldn't be too explicit at all so as to keep from scaring him. A basic explanation was good enough: "For instance, foreplay must be done sufficiently, and before entering one must remember to lubricate…"

_{Seeming to have recalled the situation from a moment ago, Zhou Wenyang's began to turn orange.}"Of course! That place for men is not the same as a woman's…" I held my head, "Think about it for a minute, with that place being tight and dry, without lubrication, how can anyone go in, huh!"

Seeming to have recalled the situation from a moment ago, Zhou Wenyang's began to turn orange.

_{"Does... the one playing the female role feel a lot of pain?"}Then came a shriek. I really wanted to know what that man did to Mr. Ouyang, but from my line of sight only his broad back and Mr. Ouyang's open legs could be seen.

"Does... the one playing the female role feel a lot of pain?"

_{"Does... the one playing the female role feel a lot of pain?"}
"Yes…" I racked my brains in search of the most suitable words to teach him—a teenager who was not necessarily clear on relations between men and women, let alone that between men with other men, as well as keeping in mind he was heterosexυal himself so I couldn't be too explicit at all so as to keep from scaring him. A basic explanation was good enough: "For instance, foreplay must be done sufficiently, and before entering one must remember to lubricate…"

"Does... the one playing the female role feel a lot of pain?"

_{Chapter Six}"Yes…" I racked my brains in search of the most suitable words to teach him—a teenager who was not necessarily clear on relations between men and women, let alone that between men with other men, as well as keeping in mind he was heterosexυal himself so I couldn't be too explicit at all so as to keep from scaring him. A basic explanation was good enough: "For instance, foreplay must be done sufficiently, and before entering one must remember to lubricate…"

Chapter Six

_{Crap! Does this guy want to puke?}
"Lυbricate?" He looked puzzled.

Crap! Does this guy want to puke?

_{环肥燕瘦: huánféiyànshòu: (idiom) describes the different kinds of beauty of women and other stuff.}When I pulled Wenyang out of the office in a flurry, both of our arms were covered in goosebumps. Wenyang's fair face was pulsing with red and blue, his thin lips drawn into a line as he said nothing for a long while. Obviously, what he had just witnessed was was well beyond a R-18 rating.

环肥燕瘦: huánféiyànshòu: (idiom) describes the different kinds of beauty of women and other stuff. [] 乖/乖乖: Guai. Here's the thing, this means to be obedient/good/behave but it can also be used as a petname. When it's used sometimes, to me, it comes off as both and expressing this in English is a pain in the bum! [] 三好学生: lit. Three good student. Meaning - it was a nationally awarded award given in recognition of a child/student who excels in their 1 studies, 2 behavior(morals) and 3 fitness/health. []^4. 柳下惠: Liu Xiahui: he is an historical figure that lived in 720-621 BCE, and was well regarded for his honest and upright nature and behaviour. The lovely man got referenced by Confucius himself, and is used to refer to a good man—like, a *good* man. (Husband material)[]iana: Xiao Jing saying to himself he'd "close his eyes", is one of the saddest lines I've ever read. He couldn't save himself, thus has no faith he can save someone else too under provocation, especially against someone with powerful connections. Him being aware of his helplessness is… heartbreaking.

_{I rose my hand and swore: "Really, he's really not!"}I thought it was Ouyang and his girlfriend who were hidden away in there like some sort of rendezvous between lovers. So I wanted to tease Zhou Wenyang to make him open his eyes and see a world of knowledge, broaden his horizons you could say. However, what happened was something I never expected, because inside that office, entangled with one another— were two men.

I rose my hand and swore: "Really, he's really not!"

_{Mr. Ouyang's voice seemed fearful: "I'm not lying, it's Wenyang…"}
"Of course! That place for men is not the same as a woman's…" I held my head, "Think about it for a minute, with that place being tight and dry, without lubrication, how can anyone go in, huh!"

Mr. Ouyang's voice seemed fearful: "I'm not lying, it's Wenyang…"

_{"Technique?" His brows knitted as if he were dealing with a question in a Chemistry competition.}"It will split open." I said in all seriousness.

"Technique?" His brows knitted as if he were dealing with a question in a Chemistry competition.

_{"Of course! That place for men is not the same as a woman's…" I held my head, "Think about it for a minute, with that place being tight and dry, without lubrication, how can anyone go in, huh!"}"Why didn't you let me go save Ouyang Laoshi?!" Those honest words spoken by that guy put me on the spot: "You… What are you talking about! Doesn't Ouyang like Xiao Yuan? After watching them for so long, how could you not see that?!"

"Of course! That place for men is not the same as a woman's…" I held my head, "Think about it for a minute, with that place being tight and dry, without lubrication, how can anyone go in, huh!"

_{"Liar! You're a big-fat liar!!! Ouyang genuinely cried.}
He went over it in his head genuinely, imagining it very carefully. Therefore, his face grew even more unsightly: "If it originally is like that… then… what if one enters directly?"

"Liar! You're a big-fat liar!!! Ouyang genuinely cried.

_{After that time, I had so many people around me I could start a game of poker.}
"It will split open." I said in all seriousness.

After that time, I had so many people around me I could start a game of poker.

_{That boy's intense movements shocked and stunned even me, and when I heard that name, I was even more astonished that my eyeballs wanted to pop out of my head.}
"An anal fissure?!!" His expression was dreadful.

That boy's intense movements shocked and stunned even me, and when I heard that name, I was even more astonished that my eyeballs wanted to pop out of my head.

_{Heheh! Yes, this was how I consoled myself, or would it be better to say deceiving myself? Some had eyes like his; some had a similar chin to his… and I, from each one to the next, gathered up all these fragments of Zhou Wenyang. His hair, his voice, his smile, the expression in his eyes… even though I knew these pieces would never form a complete Zhou Wenyang for me, I still stubbornly persisted.}"Ah— Don't!!" his moans were almost shrieks, "Xiao Yuan—"

Heheh! Yes, this was how I consoled myself, or would it be better to say deceiving myself? Some had eyes like his; some had a similar chin to his… and I, from each one to the next, gathered up all these fragments of Zhou Wenyang. His hair, his voice, his smile, the expression in his eyes… even though I knew these pieces would never form a complete Zhou Wenyang for me, I still stubbornly persisted.

_{I never expected, that besides myself, others from South High would have this sort of preference. And even more, to have hidden it so well! Your typical sheep in wolf's clothing… uh no—wolf in sheep's clothing, huh? I can even remember how all the girls referred to him as "Liu Xiahui: the faithful, the honest, and upright man^[4]" behind his back.}
"Yes," I nodded. He stared at me, eyes lifeless—the look causing my hair to stand on end.

I never expected, that besides myself, others from South High would have this sort of preference. And even more, to have hidden it so well! Your typical sheep in wolf's clothing… uh no—wolf in sheep's clothing, huh? I can even remember how all the girls referred to him as "Liu Xiahui: the faithful, the honest, and upright man^[4]" behind his back.

_{Heheh! Yes, this was how I consoled myself, or would it be better to say deceiving myself? Some had eyes like his; some had a similar chin to his… and I, from each one to the next, gathered up all these fragments of Zhou Wenyang. His hair, his voice, his smile, the expression in his eyes… even though I knew these pieces would never form a complete Zhou Wenyang for me, I still stubbornly persisted.}"Don't be scared... I'll be gentle this time, okay~~"

Heheh! Yes, this was how I consoled myself, or would it be better to say deceiving myself? Some had eyes like his; some had a similar chin to his… and I, from each one to the next, gathered up all these fragments of Zhou Wenyang. His hair, his voice, his smile, the expression in his eyes… even though I knew these pieces would never form a complete Zhou Wenyang for me, I still stubbornly persisted.

_{Heheh! Yes, this was how I consoled myself, or would it be better to say deceiving myself? Some had eyes like his; some had a similar chin to his… and I, from each one to the next, gathered up all these fragments of Zhou Wenyang. His hair, his voice, his smile, the expression in his eyes… even though I knew these pieces would never form a complete Zhou Wenyang for me, I still stubbornly persisted.}
"…Xiao, Xiao Jing… are you alright?"

Heheh! Yes, this was how I consoled myself, or would it be better to say deceiving myself? Some had eyes like his; some had a similar chin to his… and I, from each one to the next, gathered up all these fragments of Zhou Wenyang. His hair, his voice, his smile, the expression in his eyes… even though I knew these pieces would never form a complete Zhou Wenyang for me, I still stubbornly persisted.

_{At first glance, I almost shouted. Which was really not a wise move after hearing those muffled moans. I, who had ample experience with that sort of action, immediately knew exactly what was going on, but nonetheless made one crucial error.}
"Huh?"

At first glance, I almost shouted. Which was really not a wise move after hearing those muffled moans. I, who had ample experience with that sort of action, immediately knew exactly what was going on, but nonetheless made one crucial error.

_{"Laoshi… you're not the boss here right now."}Seeming to have recalled the situation from a moment ago, Zhou Wenyang's began to turn orange.

"Laoshi… you're not the boss here right now."

_{I found him a napkin in the nick of time. Wenyang was having a hard time speaking: "Do all men, with other men…do…that kind of thing?"}
He covered his face: "I mean… aren't you always the one in the receiving role…—what if you met someone completely unskilled… that would hurt you…"

I found him a napkin in the nick of time. Wenyang was having a hard time speaking: "Do all men, with other men…do…that kind of thing?"

_{I was forced, so I have some authority and the right to speak on such a matter.}"Which kind of of thing?" I thought it was funny, looking at that stupefied expression of his.

I was forced, so I have some authority and the right to speak on such a matter.

_{But in the end, South High of, all places, gave me one tiny shock which had successfully engraved itself into my mind forever. This deep impression made me, many years later, successfully recall that during my high school days, an English teacher, and homeroom teacher, named Ouyang Xiwen existed…}
"Well…" I smiled, "It's not possible that I'll let that kind of person touch me, okay."

But in the end, South High of, all places, gave me one tiny shock which had successfully engraved itself into my mind forever. This deep impression made me, many years later, successfully recall that during my high school days, an English teacher, and homeroom teacher, named Ouyang Xiwen existed…

_{Plus, we should've snuck away, but we didn't know why our feet seemed like they were nailed to the floor, unable to move at all.}
Looking back, that really was a marvellous scene. Standing on that school's lawn, I, to the heterosexual man whom I loved, gently gave the knowledge of and re-education in 'Gay H-stuff". I do not dare say that my motivations were pure, but the many years which have passed have proved that both of us weren't alone in having ulterior motives.

Plus, we should've snuck away, but we didn't know why our feet seemed like they were nailed to the floor, unable to move at all.

_{Mr. Ouyang's voice seemed fearful: "I'm not lying, it's Wenyang…"}"Stop trying to fool me, what time is it now? Besides a good student like me, who else will come find you, huh?"

Mr. Ouyang's voice seemed fearful: "I'm not lying, it's Wenyang…"

_{When I pulled Wenyang out of the office in a flurry, both of our arms were covered in goosebumps. Wenyang's fair face was pulsing with red and blue, his thin lips drawn into a line as he said nothing for a long while. Obviously, what he had just witnessed was was well beyond a R-18 rating.}"Behave, don't cry. Darling will be very comfortable, alright."

When I pulled Wenyang out of the office in a flurry, both of our arms were covered in goosebumps. Wenyang's fair face was pulsing with red and blue, his thin lips drawn into a line as he said nothing for a long while. Obviously, what he had just witnessed was was well beyond a R-18 rating.

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Author's Note:

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Notes:

^1. 环肥燕瘦: huánféiyànshòu: (idiom) describes the different kinds of beauty of women and other stuff.

^2. 乖/乖乖: Guai. Here's the thing, this means to be obedient/good/behave but it can also be used as a petname. When it's used sometimes, to me, it comes off as both and expressing this in English is a pain in the bum!

^3. 三好学生: lit. Three good student. Meaning - it was a nationally awarded award given in recognition of a child/student who excels in their {1} studies, {2} behavior(morals) and {3} fitness/health.

^4. 柳下惠: Liu Xiahui: he is an historical figure that lived in 720-621 BCE, and was well regarded for his honest and upright nature and behaviour. The lovely man got referenced by Confucius himself, and is used to refer to a good man—like, a *good* man. (Husband material)

iana: Xiao Jing saying to himself he'd "close his eyes", is one of the saddest lines I've ever read. He couldn't save himself, thus has no faith he can save someone else too under provocation, especially against someone with powerful connections. Him being aware of his helplessness is… heartbreaking.

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